So it turns out my forecast wasn't too far off....today i learned many things about the human body...my human body that is....insane amounts of stress + sleep deprivation + hunger + headache + taking medication on an empty stomach = a horrible state...one that gives a feeling close to death.....today was one of the worst days i have experienced so far in my 21 years of life...i have NEVER been so tired and stressed out....i couldnt function or think....and i found out that crying makes you even weaker....and after a good amount of waterworks...you cant really open your eyes....and even though i REALLY TRULLLY didn't want to skip my perspective class...i can honestly say i stayed in class until i felt so sick that i knew in my gut...i was comprimising my health...and what the hell is all this for if i break down my body and can't function?....its just not smart....so i turned in my assignments...stayed until he was done with the lesson lecture...and he even told me to go home...so i know i wasn't just being stupid...i guess i looked pretty bad....so i learned a very important lesson today....that i really need to take care of myself...so maybe ill try the sleep till 9 pm...then wake up and do hw for the rest of the nite...i hope it works because as fuckin tough as this school is...i will not drop out...i will not stop...i cant...its been my dream for so long...and i have to stick it out...and hope it will all be worth it and pay off in the end..